Disease

Beneath a beating sun.
They keep me cold and then the shadows rising
Always remind me that the worst is yet to come.
A vision subject to change and as I fall apart
I fail to watch the words in white ink erase themselves.
When the time comes I will be rid of this town,
But my only regret is that I never let you fall.

Fall

If you want me to take it
I'm falling and shaking
I'll never restore all the things that have let me down.
(What wasn't meant to be)
But they will follow me,
And I won't believe that I was ever meant to be
Alive but full of disease.

The worst isn't the blood
That falls down my skin,
And it isn't the dismissive words you hurled
Straight to my head now bold out in print.
The worst thing is the spiral, circle,
Vortex, cycle, that weaves my thoughts into hatred.
So pull the trigger on the firearm of your vanity,
And watch the bullet penetrate my skull.
So your self-absorbed actions and your hunger for attention
Will wash the river out of me and cover my skin all in bleach.
Don't go wasting your enemies,
You may have no friends left at all,
And remember that when you fall.

Fall

If you want me to take it
I'm falling and shaking
I'll never restore all the things that have let me down.
(What wasn't meant to be)
But they will follow me,
And I won't believe that I was ever meant to be
Alive but full of disease.

I'm falling down,
And out of this city,
But I'll be back with memories of you,
Which you will relive in all that you do.

And I just wanna know,
How it must feel,
To never be alone,
And always choosing sides,
To fit who sucks up to you the most.
Because we all know if you didn't you'd have to face your flaws

Flaws

If you want me to take it
I'm falling and shaking
I'll never restore all the things that have let me down.
(What wasn't meant to be)
But they will follow me,
And I won't believe that I was ever meant to be
Alive but full of disease.

And Down, Down I Fell

I can almost taste the wind
Whipping across my face,
As you stare away from me,
Your gaze locked out in space.
And you'd be gone from then on,
Without another word,
I think I'm falling down,
Within your darkened disregard.
And falling apart.

I found something in you,
That I didn't expect to see,
But it brought my soul to life,
I guess you didn't see it in me.
And now your eyes will fill with hate,
The damage crept into,
Whenever you see my face,
'Cause I wasn't enough for you.
When I fell for you.

I said I'd write you a letter,
Without any tears,
I said I won't fall apart,
Like I had done for years.
But you were with someone new
When I fell for you.

You can't expect for my heart to take
All this pain and then not break,
When I even hear your name,
But I guess I am to blame.
You can't understand the pain
With blood always running cold,
For you I'll cut within the vein,
And do just as I was told.
There's no more point to growing old.

I said I'd write you a letter,
Without any tears,
I said I won't fall apart,
Like I had done for years.
But you were with someone new
When I fell for you.

Throw away our picture frames,
Ignore the bed in which I lay.
Take seven months down from the wall,
And just wait for me to fade away.

With my blood all over your room,
You can paint across the stain,
Just turn your head away,
And pretend you didn't know my name.

I said I'd write you a letter,
Without any tears,
I said I won't fall apart,
Like I had done for years.
I guess there was nothing to do
When I fell for you.